The world around you changes before you even know about it and then you are asked to adjust!...LIFE, they call it!

When things don't work out the way you planned or the way you want them to you realize there are higher powers working around. there is some existence that is controlling everything even you and your life. Life is so unpredictable. You give your entire life to something, thinking about it, planning for it and anxiously waiting for it and when it is there you are not! You are somewhere else with someone else planning something different altogether and waiting for something else. Human beings are fascinating creatures. We have the ability to adjust, adapt, change, alter...forgive (maybe not forget) and move on!...This ability in life makes everything so insignificant except time. Everything is a function of time. At one time in life you value something and can not even imagine your existence without it and at another point you value something else; making what came earlier less significant.

True this is life....right now for me nothing is making sense. I can't reason myself to be happy with where and what i am. This happens to me (:p)..i have high happy moments and extremely low moments when it becomes difficult to breathe( not having that right now thank God).

Sometimes you want to run away from your own existence from what defines you from what you are!...

Stop time and space..run really fast till the time the wind has been able to peel off every layer of identity you had worn on yourself and then pause and Think! Free from all networks of individual and societal relations.....we should be able to experience times like these once in a while..:p

Just a random piece..wrote a year ago (i think:p)

He stood there starring at the lights of the Badshahi Mosque, which represented eternity, divinity..bliss. He wanted to get absorbed in the ambiance of that place. Lights shinning like scattered stars in the sky which was as dark as a pit. He starred without blinking for several seconds before his eyes started hurting, making him realize that he was still tied in the limitations of a human being: stranded in the constraints of time, space and matter.

A tear rolled down his right cheek and he closed his eyes, took a deep breath; only to feel helpless all over again. He turned his back to the lights and went to sit with a bunch of boys : to get lost in the noise and become invisible.....

Wishlist

my three wishes
....in chronological order...
1. i lose weight and i stay that way! I love food, i love to eat and its not funny :P
my first wish for whosoever is listening (and by that i mean u my dear God!) is that i lose weight, become fitter and never gain it back. that i can eat whatever i want and not have to worry about the calories i am accumulating in my body's bank balance
2. the Perfect dude! im not adding a list of qualities, coz i think they are too obvious. if one is perfect, one is just that, PERFECT!
3. i want to be the president of my country. now this is something i am working towards or rather procrastinating in the direction of, so i am not leaving it completely to a genie to get me there. and as soon as i become the president, all matters shall be resolved.

so here's starting on another journey...